Showing posts with label unconditional emotion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label unconditional emotion. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

in the lowest point when i had nothing to hope

me : hopeless

x : hopeless do more!!

me : how can i do more when i had no more hope?

x : it means just do it! and then you'll know, actually your spirit is never disappear.. =)


thank you. : )

Sunday, August 30, 2009

im friendless and need someone's shoulder to cry on..

anyone?

its just..

is that a sin when im saying that i feel like i miss the person who definitely isnt missing me at all?

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

midnight post

i got really bad insomnia. and you know i was writing this post in the middle of my room's darkness
again, me for being stupid. i was trying to be a stalker hahahaha. i read all his/her write. damn it!

after that, my head sang :

you've got to moooveee ooon!!! yea yea yeaaah


hahah maaf saya sedang insomnia jadi ngomongnya udah ngalor ngidul gajelas.

okay, i stopped for being stalker and trying to write what's my mind says.

she/he told me that it wasnt me she/he mentioned on his p*.
its okay.. thats very okay. cz i dont really care who is that. and i know im gonna win this war. hahaha apa sih gue.


and among this darkness
im gonna tell you that
I MISS HILFI AMRI!
hahaha
stooopid!



i wish i could call him. or we spend the night with vidio call again?? hahahaha


p.s i hate insomnia

Friday, June 12, 2009

we're gonna wave goodbye

in a week or less, we're not gonna under the same roof again friends.
the emptiness we'll feel, its a price from our future.

we're not gonna be together forever, but we'll never be apart.

big love civeramoz alxondiscreduso

Monday, May 04, 2009

damn

IM GONNA CRY.
i cant stand seeing them. both.

i should go. now..

thinking of you -- katy perry

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

like i care?

oh yes people, i dont even care what you saying about me.
keep talking behind me and i keep on walking.
its all up to you bitches. i got my own life and dont need any single reason to hear you gossiping on me.
all i need to hear is whats my bff say. HA HA HA

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Monday, March 09, 2009

i wish i could

i wish i could skip a day
just one day
please?

i just not ready enough to see how it'll cut me.
im not ready to bleeding (again).


Friday, February 20, 2009

it will or it wont?

if it'll stop this crazy feeling about you
i'll do it.
its because i hate to be always trapped here
i need to let you go
even if i should be with him
i'll be okay
still... i want you back :((

but it's time to let you fly :)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

oh my fashion guide (nitong said so)

its 10 days away! oh come on... SEMANGAAAAT!
akun ui hell yeah!!
oh, congrats for krizna!! im happy for you ;)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

man, gue desperate nih. sungguh.

gimana cara naikin berat badan sih?? desperate gue! udah seminggu ini gue kerjanya cuma makan ama tidur.. plus makan gue biadap banget. bntar bntar pasti ngunyah makanan.. tapi kok ya NGGAK GENDUT GENDUT GUENYA?? zzzzzz naik sekilo pun nggaak.. huhuhuhu.
gue rasa timbangan rumah gue salah deh. ntar ah pas masuk sekolah gue timbang di poli aja. ato besok aja di dokter, mumpung gue ke dokter.

gue yakin BANGET. kalo timbangan rumah gue ada yang salah. YAKIN PASTI. huhuhu.

ya tuhaan, berilah hambamu ini lemak yang cukup supaya nggak dikatain kurus mulu dan nggak sia-sia perjuangan makannya selama ini.. AMIN.

Friday, August 29, 2008

T.T

beneran deh gue capek banget bikin presentasi. bodo ah. gue nge blogg aja.

hmmmh.. setelah tadi gue liat-liat isi blog gue, ternyata ada tentang curhatan gue yg ttg love life gue.. huhu. padahal awalnya gue gamau menjadikan isi blog gue ada cinta-cintaannya. huhuhu

jadi bingung. kalo diapus, sayang juga sih.. tapi gue males ngeliatnyaaa.. zzz
lalu harusnya apa yg gue lakukan?? ndak tau, masih bingung gue.

aaah, gila beneran nih. gue pusing abis.. huhu harus dikumpulin kapan sih fisikanya? huhuhuhu T.T

yaudah ya. gue mau ngerjain fisika dulu. temen gue dateng finally. huhu

goddamn mad!

grrr. gue capeeek. sebel banget! masa ya, gue kan lagi ngerjain presentasi fisika di perpus, terus temen sekelompok gue malah DI KELAS ATO GA MAIN GAME DI KOMPUTER LAIN! gatau maluuu. grr.

komputer yg gue pake juga lemot bangeeeet! terusan gue juga gangerti materinya. uda gitu si komputernya pake linux lagi! gue kan gapteeeeeeeeeeeek.. bikin presentasi di linux! zzzz

sumpah pusing abis. gue kutuk tu dua oraang. GABAKALAN GUE TULIS NAMANYA DI PRESENTASIIIIIIII! sedih banget niih, mau nangis gue..

Monday, August 25, 2008

grr. sebel nih gueee!

zzzz.. sebel!! lagi sebel gue. rasanya lagi mau gigit orang!! (buset, gahar amat yak?! ;D)
ah, tapi seriusaaaan.. sumpah gue sebel bangeeeet!
masa ya tadi ada yang nymaperin gue gitu, dia bilang dia udah baca postingan gue yg love story.. GRRR.
ngapain sih dia baca"??? -_________________- terusan, dia kasi comment gitu. katanya he wanted to tell me something. AAAH GUE KAN GAMAU TAUUK. LAGIAN GAPENTING JUGA KALO GUE TAUU. zzzzz
terus pas tadi dia manggil gue. gue males gitu.. tauk ah, akhirnya pintu kelas gue gue tutup aja depan muka dia. abisan gue sebel. wong udah gue bulang gaperlu ngasi tau gue eh malah maksa mau ngasi tau gue.. zzzz. well, ngerasa bersalah juga siih. gaenak juga gue sama dia. TAPI TETEP AJAAAA. SEBEL.Z

nih ya. gue jelasin. postingan gue yg love story itu. gue emang seneng waktu itu, TAPI CUMA WAKTU ITU AJAAAAA. skarang udah biasa lagi. lagian dia udah punya cewe dan gue bukan tipe orang yg suke ngerbut cowo orang (kecuali mas oka, gue mesti merebut dia dari istrinya. hehe). tapi gue tekankan sekali lagi, GUE BIASA AJA SAMA DIAAAA! waktu itu ya waktu itu aja. dan lagian kalo gue waktu ikut kesenengan kaya gitu bukan brarti gue masi suka sama diaaa. zz

aah! pokonya gue sebel. sebel. sebel. sebel. sebeeeeel.. aah, udamana si blogger lama banget sih bukanya.. aaaaa... gue mau nge post niiih GRR.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

facing the truth

sekarang udah jam setengah dua belas. beberapa menit yg lalu ada orang yg udah duatahun belakangan gue kenal. udah punya history sama gue. di yahoo messenger he tried to tell me something. i know it'll hurts. so i ignore him. sorry not ignoring, but escaping. skrg gue lagi appear off. males aja. sepertinya dia memaksa gue untuk mendengar cerita itu. man, i just not rfeady enough to know it. ini mslh hati gue. hehe.

stlh gue pikir-pikir, there's people who scared about truth. gue ga segitu scared sih.. just not ready enogh to face it. apa bedanya ya? gue prefer lebih baik ngga tauk sama sekali daripada guenya yg sakit. egois apa pengecut? you can say both.yeah, gue

egois. gue gamau dgrin pendapat orang lain. gue gamau ada satu hal kecil yg ngerusak mood gue. soalnya kalo mood gue udah ancur, yasudah, tamat riwayat hari gue saat itu. so i have to stabilize my mood. masih tergolong egois juga ya?

pengecut. mungkin iya. 30% hati gue berkata begitu (beuhh). ketakutan akan kenyataan itu bikin gue cukup terperangkap dlm diri orang yang cukup tahu. bukan banyak tahu. balik lagi ke masalah mood. gue cuma ngejaga supaya mood gue ga ancur. mungkin itu yg bikin gue jadi pengecut.. masa sama masalah aja gue takut? tapi nyatanya hampir begitu. apa gue ngga cukup dewasa buat face it all? hahaha.

honestly, gue cukup penasaran ttg apa yg dia mau omongin. tapi kayanya gue udah hampir bisa nebak deh. daripada gue yg kenapa" mending gue diem aja. atau gausah tauk. ato gue nyari tauk sndiri. hhh. dan gue rasa dia bakalan terus coba ngomong sama gue. and still, i dont want to listen.

im sorry.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

my dear 212 j

my dear 212 j.. (lebay style)

maap yaa kalo gue blsnya telat.. maklum eyke sibuk. eheheh
honestly, gua aga aga ngantuk sebenernya. maklum skrg jam satu limabelas. tapi buat lo semuaa.. bakalan gue bls msg lo. yeah yeah.

makasi yaa buat semuanya. WHAT A GREAT GREAT YEAR! ahahha kamar paling gila seduniaa. sejagat alam dah! kangen gua, hahaha. nihot si MISS LEBAYY. puti si NENEK MINANG, nitong ARTIS TOP duarebusepuluh. dan gue, si cantik.. wkakaka (ampun)

maap, kalo gue suka marah" gajelas. suka ngambek" gitu, SUKA GAMAU MINJEMIN MP4 GUE KE LO, TONG. hahaha, kalo males bebenah, ato ga tukang berantakin kamar, ato ga suka nangis nangis (maklum artis papan atas, jadi mesti latian ekting nangis, hahaha), suka MARAH MARAH KALO NITONG LAGI NYANYI, MENCELA NITONG, wakakaka dan MASIH TERLALU BANYAK KALO GUE SEBUTIN. hehehe. yang jelas, gue tau, pasti udah gue dimaapin gara" makanan yg sering gue bawain kalo lagi inkus. hahaha (ampuun, sujut sujut)

inget ga, waktu jamannya lagu ok? gue mentah mentah menolak habis dengerin lagu itu. hahaha. skrg udah biasa aja ko. terus waktu awal awal nitong masi nyanyi from yesterday. hahahaha najees lu tong. eh waktu nitong ulang taun terus kita tinggalin dia. hahaa pake baju pink sama waktu mau ngasi surprise DIA MALAH NGELAYAP! zz gatau malu lo tong..

terus ya, lo inget ga, waktu si piiip mau pegi, kita nyanyi" 'putiii, jangan menangiss hapus airmataa diawajah cantikmu.....' wakakak sama si siapa tuh bonekanya? lupa gue namanya. tersu waktu si nihot lagi benci benci nya ama bela. yg ngomong sama tangan itu hoot.. inget ga? hahaha

eiya baru inget. maap ya kalo suka SUSAH BANGUNIN GUE.heheh terus si puti suka ngumpet di lemari. hahaha ketauan deh put. ;p apalagi yaa? kayanya banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak bgt yg mau gue tulis.. oya lebayynya nihot dan cerita orang betawi kalo kawinan suguhannya cuma pisang ama sprite doang. hahaha nampol noh. hahaha

anyway, MAKASI BANGET YA GUYS! waktu surprise ultah gue. hehehe. YOU ARE MY BESTIE. MUAH MUAH! gilee cepet bgt yak, uda setaun.. ga kerasa bgt. gila gila gila. thanks for all.. smuamua dah.. i lop yuu. wakakakak

oiya tong, gue utang lo satu hal. ntar lo liat di mp4 gue deh.. gratis! hahaha
omygodd, gue rasa gue bakalan kangen bgt sm 'kayanya lo jodoh deh!' sama 'im not insaaane' hahahahaha gila. oiya, request dongg, mari kita tuntaskan cerita anak" kita di blog gue. have no idea guys. hahaha gue juga tau. lo smua pasti bakalan kangen sama masakan gue. ahahhahaah makasih makasih. kapan" kalo gue lagi baik gue bawain deh. hahaha.

intinyaa.. I LOVE YOU ALL SOOOOOOO MUCH MUCH! muah.
makasi yaa. udah dini hari.. besok mesti balik ke ic. huuhuhuhuhu.. liburan baru dimulai! yeah!
smg gue sekelas sm lo smua! azeeek.



xoxoxo
princess of 212 j. hahahaha





p.s
lo tauuu, si handycam gue itu RUSAAK! huhuhuhu
liat vidionya mesti di kompy. huhuhuhu. ntar gue convert trus msukin mp4. okok?

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

moodswing playlist

gatauk kenapa belakang ini gue lagi sering moodswing. itu loh, moodnya kaya roller coaster. naik turun gajelas. nah, pas lagi kaya gitu biasanya gue lgsg play wmp gue. lagunya pasti itu-itu mulu. aga bosen siih. tapi gue lagi addict bgt sama lagu di playlist gue yg ini. huhuhuhu. well, semuanya lagu mellow (eh ga juga sih). intinya yang paling penting gue suka itu LIRIKNYA. gue banget. ahhaha.
and this is the moodswing playlist..

1. p.s im still not over you - rihanna

gile, gue ngestuck bgt sama lagu ini. udah lama sih, tapi gue baru dgrin di ipodnya andre sblm liburan kmrn. lgsg gue donlot dan gue resapi liriknya.. jeng jeeeeng GUE BANGET!! huhuhu T.T baca aja liriknya

Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you



2. so would you let me be - d'cinnamons

well, yg ini ga terlalu memaknai liriknya, tapi enak bgt. apalagi kalo gue lagi bete. hehe check out the lyrics guys.



we’ve get along together
i should have known
you’re the best that i can love
till now it’s hard for me to face it
why didn’t we meet each other soon

i left them all behind you, only for you
would you believe me
i put my trust on you
but deep inside i realize
that i can’t, no i can’t

they were all my brother
my cry and happiness

*
so would you let me be myself
reach all my my dreams and hopes
i know you’ve known me better
i know you love me, you do

your eyes says more than anything
that really means to me
so darling would you now
would you set me free



3. broken vow - lara fabian

ini vesi josh grobannya juga ada sih. tapi enakan yg lara fabian. lebih dalem gituu. hihii. ini yang sontreknya si meteor garden 2. sedih bgt sumpah.. waktu karokean aja gue sampe nangis. hehe


Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
While I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes

I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end



4. semakinku - two triple o

gue dikasi tauk temen gue a.k.a danang, suru dengerin ni lagu. katanya gue banget. iya sih, abis gue dengerin juga GUE BANGET. hahah

[ its funny how man like you
possibly makes me feel this way
still loving you
after all of what you have done
but then...

where are you now
where should i found you
i hope you here with me
be with me

just like we used to
we spent tonight together
nobody knows just two of us
have you ever think about me ]

katakan kau milikku
walaupun kau pernah coba sakiti aku
ku tak sesali itu
karna melangkah tanpamu aku tak mau

katakan kau milikku
takkan habis cintaku di setiap hariku
dengarkanlah sayangku
kini kuungkapkan semuanya

ref:
semakin tenggelam dalam cintamu
semakin kurasa indah hariku
haruskah ku terjaga dari mimpiku
tuk dapatkan dirimu

semakin kularut dalam khayalku
bisakah aku tuk raih hatimu
haruskah ku terjaga dari mimpiku
tuk dapatkan dirimu


katakan kau milikku
berulangkali kucoba hapus bayangmu
kutak yakin itu
tuk dapat berlari darimu

[ i apologized my baby
our story is just history
begin continue the journey
i know such a misery
bye.. love ]



5. semua tentangmu - rini idol

pertama denger di radio langsung dapet bagian yg gue banget. wuih, langsung gue cari tu lagu. hahaha. gue nulisnya part yg gue banget aja yah

biar kusimpan dalam hati saja
semua indah mimpiku
ku tak mau ingat semua tentang dirimu

biarkan aku benci saja
atas semua sikapmu
ku tak mau kau lukai cinta di hatiku



6. jera - agnes monica

gue baru dengerin ni lagu lagi sih.. DAN SKARANG SANGAT GUE SEKALI.. huhuhuhu sebel deh lagu playlist gue gada yg bener nih..

Hitam bukan cirimu
Putih juga bukan cirimu
Semu ku melihatmu
Tak bercahaya
Seperti memudar
*)

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Reff

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi


Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera


well, thats the playlist. :)