crafty crafty!

do it myself project today is... PAINTED A BAG! i got this bag from magazine

and what we'll we get??


lovely hand-painted sling bag! yeaaay!

it will or it wont?

if it'll stop this crazy feeling about you

i'll do it.

its because i hate to be always trapped here

i need to let you go

even if i should be with him

i'll be okay

still... i want you back :((

but it's time to let you fly :)

oh my fashion guide (nitong said so)

its 10 days away! oh come on... SEMANGAAAAT!

akun ui hell yeah!!

oh, congrats for krizna!! im happy for you ;)

oh my ...

the most i say
1. oh my god
2. o m f g -> oh my fashion god
3. f y i
4. eh, tolong ya...
5. o m i t
6. please ya..
7. kaya' ....
8. like ...

and many more. eww
guess someone will be VERY VERY HAPPY listening me saying all those words. cih

s t i l l

still..
i cant fix our things back to normal
maybe this what we called normal
act like we're stranger and dont know each other

still..
i think of him
and he wont go away from my mind

still..
i hate him so much
and curse this idiotic condition
and being stupid keep trying to fix it all

still..
im trying to deny him and
bury him deep inside
or throw it away to the ocean

coffee shop

in the coffee shop at the afternoon
we sat and talked about things
i knew its hard for me and you

it was raining, we still in the coffee shop
with rihanna's song as backsound
we talked about it. me and you

we sat among the people in the coffee shop
face to face. eyes to eyes
its an absurd decription about reflection of mine
in your eyes

we still sitting on coffee shop
and it still raining
when i decided to live my own way
and make sure that i just be fine
without you in this period

and it was in coffee shop
when our story stopped before it starts again
when time couldnt made us
it was in coffee shop

you owe me a dance

after kisses you gave me
and on bended knee you ask me to back to you
i know there'e a little love inside of you
for me..

it was an empty heart and empty feelings
what i feel to you its nothing
it was only a kiss and so what?
i just have a promise to keep

i couldnt find a word to definite
to say that i still love you
i just couldnt

i couldnt find any words to say
all i said its just dont know
i only asked you to dance with me

and now, after those waving goodbye
and memories are turning grey then gone
the one thing left is
you owe me a dance

still, i love you

is it wrong if i made to be like my own daddy?
to be an idiot as he did?
is it you or is it me?

gue PENGEN KE MM (man?!)

oh tuhann.. baru kali ini gue segitu pgnnya ke mm. emang ada apaan sih di mm?? NOTHING.
mm adalah hanya sebuah mall di kota pinggiran bekasi yg isinya ada alay", khas kota" pinggiran. tenang, MALL NYA BAGUS KOK! i mean, elitan dikit lah.. udah ada jco-breadtalk, body shop, gramed dll.

hari ini yg sgt gue inginkan adalah NGE JCO. selain gue udah cukup penat seminggu ini gara" belajar mulu (liat postingan sblmnya). gue sudah hampir mendekati tahap DEPRESI PARAH. :((
gue pgn REFRESHING nge wifi di jco. maaaaaan...

udah jam duabelas dan masih nggak ada pergerakan dari gue buat ke jco.
masalahnya adalah :
1. nyokap nggak mau nganterin
bukan gue gabisa nyetir, ato males.. TAPI KUNCINYA ADA DI KUASA NYOKAP. tetep aja gue nggak bisa ngambil

2. kalo ga disetirin nyokap gue gatau mau pergi pake apa
cuaca di bekasi aneh ini ujan ga ujan.. zzz jadi kalo misalnya gue naik ojek terus ujan???

3. bingung mau ngajak siapa
masa gue sendiri??? gapapa sih. tapi aga males aja. gue udah mencoba ngajak ade gue, namun apa daya.. dia juga setengah mau setengah nggak. gue ngajak temen gue juga sih, sebetulnya.. tapi tauk ah.. yg inilah yg itulah.. zzzz (bukan elo kok dev. hehe)

4. gue gapunya duit
di dompet cuma tersisa 3ribu rupiah. atm gue lagi dibenerin. daaan... celengan gue abis buat dipake berbuat baik.

dan.. jam 1. gue masih di depan leptop, di rumah. masih berhasrat buat ke jco ngopi-ngopi ngeliatin orang lewat sambil wifi. maaan..

need to write!!!!

pas istirahat, gue baru nyicip" ngerjain soal fisika.
huff.
tiba" entah kenapa datang dua temen gua baru dari kantin.
okky dan ipil
gue nggak ngerti gimana ceritanya sampe si ipil bilang:
gue ntar mau being rinch, richer and richest.
WEW!
inspirational. gila.
udah gitu dia bilangnya mukanya tuh kocak abis. sumpah
gue ngakak.

understress

stress. pusing
fisika, akutansi. debet. relativitas
ada tas. lucu. MAU!
pusing. migrain. needs some coffee
mau nulis. bungung mau nulis apa
pusing
fisika. relativitas
akutansi. sejarah. jurnal
pusing. ada tas lucu.
coffee
pusing

peluk - rectoverso (kyaa!)

in my birthday, i got this rectoverso novel from my besties (i love you girls). and, it was a VERY BEST BOOK IN MY JANUARY 09!
one of her GREAT GREAT story titled peluk.
we (devi, lara and me) talked (and being crazy) about these words that dee wrote in that story..
check the words.

'Aku menyayangi mu seperti kusayangi diriku sendiri. Bagaimana bisa kita ingin pisah dengan diri sendiri?'

'Barangkali itulah mengapa kematian ada, aku menduga. Mengapa kita mengenal konsep berpisah dan bersua. Terkadang kita memang harus berpisah dengan diri sendiri : dengan proyeksi. Diri yang telah menjelma menjadi manusia yang kita cinta.'

' “Habis ini lalu apa? Kamu sendiri. Aku sendiri. Buat apa? Kenapa tidak berdua lagi saja?” '

'Namun kurasa hatimu tahu, seperti hatiku pun tahu. Jika malam ini kita memutuskan untuk terus bersama, itu karena kita tidak tahu bagaimana menangani kesendirian. Aku tidak ingin bersamamu Cuma karena enggan sendiri. Kau tidak layak untuk itu. Seseorang semestinya memutuskan bersama orang lain karena menemukan keutuhannya tercermin, bukannya ketakutannya akan sepi.'

'Kamu bukan tisu sekali pakai. Kita tidak mungkin membuang apapun jika kita percaya hati bukan diperuntukkan untuk menyimpan. Otakku merekam dan menyimpan kamu, ..... '